I love my friends to death and I'm trying really hard to be as supportive as I can but I'm now losing three important people in my life... to marriage. Don't get me wrong, I think marriage is a wonderful thing but I'm also a big supporter of making rational decisions and taking a LOT of time to think it through. Granted I have never seen my roommates happier and I know that the person they are with...are truly the best people for them, so I know that marriage is right for at least two of them...but how much of this do I really have to endure?
I didn't realize how hard it would be to sit back while everyone else is out with their boyfriends and I am home alone studying or sulking. Granted, thats my decision and thats what I need to be doing, but I'm getting absolutely no where with my love life by sitting in my room.
Then when my beloved roommates/friends are finally home to hang out with me all I hear is, "blank is so amazing," or, "blank is doing blank right now." I just can't take it! Everytime I'm alone all I can think about is how my blank is practically non-existent and how I barely have a relationship at all.
I think I have a lot to offer. I think I am smart, and funny for the most part, and I'm responsible and motivated, and I don't think I'm that ugly. And I don't think that I am being too picky. There is a simple list of criteria that must be filled but everyone has some sense of what they need and I'm totally unsuccessful at finding one decent candidate. I wouldn't be this disappointed if I was actually going on dates with people that have some compatible traits but that things just aren't right with that person for one reason or another...instead I'm having difficulty even finding someone active in the church and thats only the first of a few simple pieces of criteria. Is it so hard to find a cool LDS guy that treats me right? I never thought that this would be so hard...in Utah for crying out loud!
I'm so sad that everyone is moving on in life and that I'm stuck in this stupid self-pity stage of my life. I just want to find the right guy and start my life with him. It shouldn't be this hard. Now I'm doubting the choices that I made and the path I chose. There is no turning back but chances are I might just end up the OLD MAID.
2 comments:
Jenna,.. I have a guy you might like to meet. I don't know. Seth and Skyler have this roommate. His name is *gasp* 'Brandon' ,...I know the name is cursed,. but this guy is really really cute and just finished serving a mission in croatia with Skyler. He left later so he is 23,..that's a good age isn't it? And Skyler liked him enough that they are now roommates. So what do you think? I think you guys might get along. would you be interested in meeting him? I can talk you up and give him your phone number if you are.
I Love your blog it's cute! and trust me,.. you are not going to end up an old maid!
ok maybe cursed is not the right word, but you've had occasional bad luck with brandon's is all I'm saying. sorry for dropping names if you were trying to avoid that. :) but this guy seems like he might really be your type. he might not last on the single market long so we might want to act sooner rather than later.
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